Last night, i had a very bad dream. I was being chased by a big and wild animal from the forest. I'm using the word animal here loosely. That creature could not even come close to being an animal. It was more like a monster. In my dream, I was with my daughter. When i saw the monster eating other people up, I took my daughter with me and ran as fast as i could. I also remember shouting..but as in any dream, no sound was coming out of my throat. But i remember i was so scared for our lives. The weird thing is, in my dream, i gave up running too soon. I told my daughter that we hide under the big computer table...yes, there's a computer table in the forest....and just have ourselves be eaten up once the monster sees us. And after a few seconds, i felt something hit my back twice and i was thinking "this is it...i'm gonna die...we're gonna die"...and i woke up with a tingling feeling at my back..it was my youngest son's foot hitting me at the back.
I say i find the last part of my dream, weird...not because of the computer table, of course. It was because i feel i gave up too soon...and was very willing to be devoured. I just couldnt get myself back to sleep after that. I was trying very hard to analyze what my dream's message was. I feel like it's trying to tell me something.
There is a major revamp at work that's underway. Management will decide for 5 individuals' career. This has been happening the past months, so when i heard about it, i just shrugged it off. This morning, while i was still thinking of my dream, i randomly opened a book which i have been planning to start reading. It's "How did I get here?" by Barbara de Angelis. I was just supposed to browse while waiting for breakfast. Then i accidentally read this paragraph...
"Some turning points are obvious. You know you're approaching them, even if you don't admit it to yourself or to anyone else. You've been unhappy in your job for too long, and the company itself is being reorganized...."
And i flipped on some more pages, and this is what i found, again, randomly...
"We become so attached to the road we are on, to the itenerary we have mapped out, that when a new road appears, we may not even see it.."
And i started reading....so many good insights...again, someone...or is it "myself", actually, who's trying to tell something to me?
Goosebumps everywhere....
Is that dream a wake-up call? Is it something that has already been there for a long time but i just kept on ignoring? Because i can feel that I can't go any further with the direction i am going to...and yes, i think i missed my turning point somewhere along the way....Good thing is, we can always go back and search for that road we missed....just imagine, being in a crossroad without even knowing....
"Some wake-up calls are not initiated from something outside of ourselves, but from within. It is as if a timer has been set of to go off inside you at a certain moment, and suddenly, without any warning, it does, waking you into realizations that will be radical, disruptive and life-changing.."
My dream's trying to tell me to face the BIG change...that i should not let others face it for me...that i should initiate this change....that i should be very well prepared for it...unless I'm willing to be devoured, just like that...
Now my question is, where do i start? ...hmmm..maybe, i should sleep first and i might dream of that as well...LOL
I think i know where.....hmmm
